Output 2--Why now?

The last time I felt COMPELLED to OUTPUT. "Stage Mother," art marker on sketchbook paper, 2008.

Why am I doing this now?

In short, because if I don’t output, I think I may go crazy for real. I have too much buildup. Intake has resulted in overstimulation. Sucking input is too “triggering” I fucking hate that word.

I have always been “creative on spec.“ I don’t do it for myself. I do it because someone requests it.

But sometimes I have to rip off the Band-Aid because I can’t hold it all. The last time was during the process of leaving my ex-husband (more on that later). I felt if I didn’t draw pictures that illustrated my emotional state I would implode. I feel like that again. I guess if this is a good news/bad news situations, that’s good news.

Welcome to my nightmare.